a young child I was very shy. When I entered my
teenage years I had a hard time making friends
and felt like I did not belong. During highschool
my thoughts turned to girls. I wanted to have
a girlfriend like everyone else but I could not
talk to them and felt like they wanted nothing
to do with me. I became very lonely and fell into
a deep depression. Often I would spend hours in
my room staring at the ceiling or with my head
buried in the pillows wondering to myself why
I was ever born.
my feelings of lonliness and despair overcame
me and I reached out to the one friend I did have
at the time. He answered the phone and as I began
to talk, he interrupted me and asked if he could
call me back the next day because he was busy.
After hanging up the phone I realized something.
I could not depend on my family or friends to
get over my lonliness. I could not depend on them
to be there for me every time I needed something
or someone to talk to.
At that moment I turned to God and prayed, "
God I don't know what to do. I don't have the
answers, I give up. I'm putting my life in your
That was the day I gave my life to Jesus. I'd
like to say that things turned around for me right
away, but they didn't. In fact over the last 12
years God has patiently molded me into his child.
Through many heartaches - marital problems, medical
problems, miscarriage, death of loved ones - God
has taken my stubborness, my sadness, my anger,
my lack of patience and my lack of faith and He
has replaced it with love, peace, joy and happiness.
Over the last two years in particular, I have
faced many struggles. But in those two years I
have faced them with Jesus. He takes the hurt
and pain and tells me, "Have faith, I will
use it for good, I will comfort you."
How has Jesus changed my life? Today I have a
hunger for Jesus, I want to tell everyone about
Him, I want everyone to experience His love, I
want Him to be with me every waking moment of
my day. In one sentence, God has taken the heart
of a lonely sinner and replaced it with the love